I feel this is such an important topic that needs to be discussed. I’ve always been a size 8/10 in clothes and when I was pregnant I ate like a pig, I mean I never felt full. My bump was huge and I remember everyone around me constantly saying “oh you’ll bounce straight back after birth” but trust me this didn’t and still hasn’t happened 3 months on.I don’t fit in any of my post pregnancy clothes and if I’m honest I still don’t now. I brought some jeans the other day and the only size...

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Bringing home a newborn

I’d like to start by talking about that car journey home. You know the one I mean, that very first time you’re in a moving vehicle with that tiny little newborn and all of a sudden being in the car is a super dangerous place. I sat in the back of the car with Hope on that journey and I can tell you know my eyes never left her, I was in pain and could barely stay awake, but there was no way I wasn’t going to keep an eye on her. That first ever drive from the hospital felt like it...

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Mom must haves

As a first time mom I had no idea what was a good buy and what was pretty pointless, so I thought I’d share my must haves with you all! First of has to be spritz for bits. Yes you read that right spritz for bits, it was literally my go to after birth. As you can imagine after you have pushed a human out of your lady parts it’s going to be a tad sore especially if you’re like me and had a bad tear. I sprayed this on to my pad about four times a day and it instantly took away the pain...

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Breastfeeding vs formula

It says it all in the title doesn’t it? Breastfeeding vs formula, why does it have to be such a big thing, the way in which we decide to feed our babies.  Throughout most of my pregnancy I was unsure if I wanted to breastfeed and then as soon as Hope was born it’s all I wanted to do. It was like seeing her in this world for the first time made me want to do the best I can and from what everyone drills in to your head is breastfeeding is the best way.   I...

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It’s ok to not be ok

It’s perfectly normal to not love every second of parenthood because my goodness you’re only human and it’s extremely difficult. Being a mom is the most wonderful thing in the world but where is the instruction manual? How do I know how to feel majority of the time? Am I doing ok? Who knows, all I know is every mom is different and you learn things in your own time, your own way.  I have cried a lot, on the days where Hope won’t let me put her down and she’s not stopped crying...

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After birth

Ok so if you’re Squeamish then I recommend not reading any further as I am about to discuss the ins and outs of after birth, you know all the nice things that no one warns you about 😒 So if you’ve read my labour blog then you’ll know about my surgery. I had a spinal block so for a good 4-5 hours I was completely paralysed from the waist down. The one good thing about this is I felt no pain, I was completely numb to any pain, even when they took out my catheter I didn’t feel a...

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Labour in lockdown

I had a birth plan. This birth plan was made in the first two months. I wanted to have my baby at the midwife led hospital and I wanted a waterbirth with no pain relief. Not one of these things happened. The midwife led unit closed due to Covid-19 and they had stopped all water births, so there it was my perfect birth gone, I was definitely disappointed but considering the circumstances I understood why.  Having a baby at anytime is hard , whether your baby was planned or not...

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Pregnancy

I loved being pregnant but I also hated being pregnant. It’s a weird one really, your full of joy as you carry around this little life inside of you feeling them kick and wriggle but you’re also scared half to death because you can’t see them, so how do you really know that they are ok? Month one: well the first month you’re oblivious that you’re even pregnant. I think I found out I was pregnant at 4 weeks so the first month is kinda irrelevant 🤷🏻‍♀️ Month two: morning sickness....

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My Miscarriage Story

Ever since I can remember I have wanted to be a mom and have my own little family. I met my fiancé 7 years ago, he’s literally the most amazing person and my best friend! We decided to start trying for a baby at the start of 2018. I think I was quite naive in thinking it would be super easy and I’d get pregnant straight away, however this just wasn’t the case at all. It took us 13 months to conceive and my goodness what a long 13 months it was!  The first few months wasn’t...

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Motherhood

Becoming a first time mom has most definitely had its up and downs. I feel like before becoming a parent you have so many expectations of what you think it will be like or how you will behave but in reality once that beautiful tiny human enters the world it all changes. I admit I was one of those pregnant women that said things like “I won’t be giving my child a dummy” and “I won’t hold them all day they’ll need to learn to be put down”. Now as you can probably guess both of these...

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